4/20/17

A Major Heartbreak

It's a shame
When you believe people
Will make something different
But eventually they didn't

It's a sadness
When you trust your hopes
To people who will pass it
But they didn't

It's a misplaced
When you see people happy
About being taken care of
But they didn't

It's a waste
When people said need a change
Then they still believe on bullshits
So they won't

It's a stupidity
When people wants someone brave
But they eaten up by money & theories

I feel my chest is open at her biggest hole
The ocean water deep in my heart dry
Sinking to my hopes
With the rain

I am in a major heartbreak
Bigger than love can destroy
Smaller than God plans

I was sad
But I know
God might do not want to be rush
Or
Another disaster will come

I still believe in you
To be another good person for another better occasion

4/9/17

April 9th

I ate a dried plum
Under the mask you made
Chew the seed
Taste the bit after

I don't care for what I ate
I keep chewing
Till the last bite

Now my dried plum gone
Starting to eat my finger
Then you come

Give me another dried plum
With bigger seed
So I won't chew it

But I don't care
For what I eat
As long as I carry this plum
Beneath my hand

You see?
He ask
What?
I confuse

You're just hungry
Not out of hope
You're just need someone
To give you something to process
Not blank

You know?
He ask
What?
I consider

You're not alone
You can keep the seed
Don't burry inside your mouth
Because I might gone
Somewhere
To plant another plum

And give you some
Whenever you feel hungry

But promise me
Don't be a fool
When I am not around

You're talking to me?
I confuse

No
He said
I am talking to an empty soul without a smile

4/6/17

April 6th

Make me stay
For a while
Even for a drink
Or just to sip a can of orange juice

Make me awake
Through the thunder storm
And heavy rain
Just to see the water drop by

Make me alive
Pinch me while I asleep
Kiss me while I cry
Just to know I have you
For enough time

Make me smile
Talk to me like you're a high paid comedian
Just to remain me
That I can laugh
Even when I want to throw up

Make me stay
Even for a minute
Just to reassure
That we're no longer imaginary
Between what is will
And reality