Dia Sebelum Kamu

Aku takut

Jika dia akan datang

Sebelum kamu

Merampas kedamaian

Merebut semua khayalan

Meleburkannya menjadi abu

Menyaru menjadi satu

Tak terlihat mana batu dan kayu

Menerjemahkan aku

Dalam dimensi dan definisi

Yang sebelumnya tak pernah ada

Namun sekarang nyata

Datanglah kamu

Sebelum dia

Sebelum aku menjadi bunga

Dan dia menjadi putiknya

Aku takut

Jika lebah menjauhiku

Dan semut berputar pulang

Cepatlah datang

Karena jika dia mendahului

Kamu tidak akan mengerti

Meski aku memberi api

Kamu akan melihatnya sebagai api

Bukan hanya lampu bersinar

Yang aku paksa membakar kertas-kertas terkoyak

Aku takut

Jika dia mendahului kamu

Mengikat tali di pergelangan tanganku

Memegang erat kakiku

Menutup rapat-rapat

Semua pintu menuju imajinasi

Datanglah

Sebelum dia

Kecup tanganku

Sembunyikan aku

Hingga tersisa hanya kamu

Agar aku percaya

Bahwa aku tidak buta.

A Year Older

I walk from the beach to the hill

Needs so much times

More than a full moon phase

But I think it's less than a moon eclipse

I try to deny

That I am getting tired

My head dazzling

My nose bleeding

My foot trembling

And my self cursing

I think I will gonna collapse

Before anyone see me happy

I think I am going to surrender

Before I say thank you to everyone

Who helped me

But I see them

Holding my hand

Shaking my body

Starting to call my name loudly

I think I won't hear them, again

The sound of big roaring

The sound of wide laugh

And super awesome jokes

But then I wake up

Opening my eyes

That I can still breathe

I can still cry

And hold their hands

Warmly

I think I am going to give up this long adventure

But now I know

There's always a rope

When my foot falls

There's always a smile

When my face bitter

I believe in You

To a very wonderful

Joyful life

I thank You

I am now feeling blessed

I am now holding my lips

To release the unnecessary pain

And useless cursing

I know that happiness

Does exist.

Same Old Rain

Be aware of a rabbit start to lawn your grass

They need some food when it's flood

They need a little sugar to their blood vein

Be careful for a bird to moan at your balcony

They need some places to hide them from a dark clouds

They need a little sympathy

Watch out your foot

It might a mouse you will trample

Or an hungry frog

Look up your head

There's something fall down

It might makes you dizzy

Be prepare for an umbrella, today

It will rain

As yesterday

Same old rain

As months before.

Wednesday Sky

Do not looking up at the ceiling
while I am reading your fav poetry
Just look for a glimpse inside my eyes
Stand there for a minute or two

What do you see?

There's a long silence
Before you open up your mouth to say,

I saw a rainbow
Then now closed by a bit dark sky
But it's not the point
I only saw an ant
Climbing a rock hill

He surprised me

Never thought of anyone could think
Any of those sights

I get up
And leave him alone at the ceiling
He called me

Do not leaving me at the ceiling
Just stand there and look at my eyes

What do you see?
It's only a sky
With a black bird and a mountain
Like your drawing when you're four

Is that all?

What should I say?

Did you just made up all those things before?

No,
I saw the same thing as what you've seen

What do you see?

A sky.
At today, a sky in Wednesday.

Coming Home Soon

Afternoon never feels like home, before
It warms us, on the cold night
Tear us down when the fan is off

There's a book shelf, containing thick paper
You say that you love to read me a book
Till I smile and start to close my eyes
Under the orange lamp and a heavy wind

Afternoon never feels like home, after
Flood coming down to the loft
Erasing all good stories and lovely smile
He's all disappeared, gone
With the very last smile I know

Now it's only a cream blanket and your green shirt
Left me speechless
Heartless

People said you never go home, till forever
But I know you will come
To my wildest dream
Through your soundless whisper

To tell me
That you're going to come home
Very soon.

I woke up the next morning,
Realize
The only thing I saw is an empty blanket
With a letter on it, saying
I am coming home, soon.

Heterogenic Mind

Green stars below the orange moon

Night becomes so soft & airy

I stand between the shadow of your black cat who used to live near my garden

Chasing a little mouse who walk slowly at the roof

Tonight's sky is not as black as your fav jaguar

He turns gray, like my nanny's thin hair

But not as gray as your new phone

But I still know, that

Deep in your thought

The sky was red

And the moon was blue

The stars not shining

But they just past the sun

The goat do not eating green grass

But purple coal

Who made them delicious

But who cares

You invent a lonely guy who passed the moon

And visit the empty planet

Just to meet his guardian

But who cares

You create the most dangerous phrases

The most beautiful ideas

And turn them to money

But who cares

Who cares

You intermediate my brain

Articulate my nerves.

A Long Distance Lover

You were born in the spring season

Where flowers blossom like a sugar

Where a bird yell louder than a public choir

And fly higher than a jet plane

I was raised in a land without sand and track

Where wombs will came out and look for a string

Where a cat can run faster than your 5yo kid rides a bike

Where your father just sit and watch you smile

You were raised in a city full of joy & laughter

Fulfilling every sadness mind

And empty soul

Cutting a bad joke & satire story

I used to live in a place called miracle

The sun was yellow but sometimes blue

The river not always flow but it always looks tasty

I saw you there, once

When I pick my candy next to your ice cream cone

You are now gone

To the world I never know

To the language I may not understand

Or maybe you just disappear

To make a distance

To see if love still grows even when we're apart for a long time

How far love can separate heart to their beats?

I don't think it takes a very long distance away.

July 5th

Run away

So people won't chase

Or they won't remember you

So peope don't kill

Or don't shoot you.

Run away

So happiness can find you

Or not

So kindness will catch you

Or not.

Run away

So you can hide the shame

Or they will blame

So you can free from your mistake

Or they will take away your pride.

Run away

Cause I don't know what to do

Run away

Cause maybe I can be another people

Run away

Cause maybe I will find you

Between the thombs and storms.