The prayer

I spell a pray
Like a curse
Never stop
And has no end.

My prayer goes to something
Something I should fight for.

So I just pray
Wherever I get a chance to pray
In the morning
In the night
Even in my dream.

So this never end with nothing.

Jan 29th

Today is my-i don't know how long-holiday was gone

I look for something thoughtful to spend these days

And i always back to read a book and eat like a pig

I found some interesting books few weeks ago before the holiday coming up

I already read 2 books in 2days

One from my very favorite not last but not least the genius John Green

And the humorous writer i've ever found Sophie Kinsella

But the rest of the hours that i spend my time for reading

I get bored

Yeah, I am easily distracted person, actually

And I still don't know what should i do for the next day

Until 2weeks

Should I get going to some course?

Emm no, no mood for taking any class

Maybe I will spend my day writing, reading and watching movies.

Well, it's my random thought.

Jan 28th

For the first time, I fell

Into the words undescribeable

Into the silence unbearable

Into the love untouchable.

For the first time, I am happy

For letting you come into my door

For letting you in to my sight

For letting you go without a tear.

For the first time, I confuse

What this would be

What this could be

What this gonna happen.

I am not worrying mine.

I am worrying ours.

Late Jan 11th

I am worrying about what my life would be
Nobody knows what the end of their lives
Everything seems so clueless
So mine, too.

I just don't get a good relationship with people
I am afraid of hurting
I am afraid with people
They might hurt me
Or they might eat me alive.

I am nobody desired
One of million people who might really care
But the rest of it, I don't know.

You must be watching this!!!!!!

For a New Beginning. 2014.

In out-of-the-way places of the heart

where your thoughts never think to wander

this beginning has been quietly forming

waiting until you were ready to emerge.

for a long time it has watched your desire

feeling the emptiness growing inside you

noticing how you willed yourself on

still unable to leave what you had outgrown.

it watched you play with seduction of safety

and the grey promises that sameness whispered

heard the waves of turnoil rise and relent

wondered would you always live like this.

then the delight, when your courage kindled

and out you stepped onto new ground

your eyes young again with energy and dream

a path of plenitude opening before you.

though your destination is not yet clear

you can trust the promise of this opening

unfurl yourself into the grace of beginning

that is at one with your life's desire.

awaken your spirit to adventure

hold nothing back, learn to find ease in risk

soon you will be home in a new rythm

for your soul senses the world that awaits you.

John O'Donohue

Happy New Year