A Major Heartbreak

It's a shame

When you believe people

Will make something different

But eventually they didn't

It's a sadness

When you trust your hopes

To people who will pass it

But they didn't

It's a misplaced

When you see people happy

About being taken care of

But they didn't

It's a waste

When people said need a change

Then they still believe on bullshits

So they won't

It's a stupidity

When people wants someone brave

But they eaten up by money & theories

I feel my chest is open at her biggest hole

The ocean water deep in my heart dry

Sinking to my hopes

With the rain

I am in a major heartbreak

Bigger than love can destroy

Smaller than God plans

I was sad

But I know

God might do not want to be rush

Or

Another disaster will come

I still believe in you

To be another good person for another better occasion

April 9th

I ate a dried plum

Under the mask you made

Chew the seed

Taste the bit after

I don't care for what I ate

I keep chewing

Till the last bite

Now my dried plum gone

Starting to eat my finger

Then you come

Give me another dried plum

With bigger seed

So I won't chew it

But I don't care

For what I eat

As long as I carry this plum

Beneath my hand

You see?

He ask

What?

I confuse

You're just hungry

Not out of hope

You're just need someone

To give you something to process

Not blank

You know?

He ask

What?

I consider

You're not alone

You can keep the seed

Don't burry inside your mouth

Because I might gone

Somewhere

To plant another plum

And give you some

Whenever you feel hungry

But promise me

Don't be a fool

When I am not around

You're talking to me?

I confuse

No

He said

I am talking to an empty soul without a smile

April 6th

Make me stay

For a while

Even for a drink

Or just to sip a can of orange juice

Make me awake

Through the thunder storm

And heavy rain

Just to see the water drop by

Make me alive

Pinch me while I asleep

Kiss me while I cry

Just to know I have you

For enough time

Make me smile

Talk to me like you're a high paid comedian

Just to remain me

That I can laugh

Even when I want to throw up

Make me stay

Even for a minute

Just to reassure

That we're no longer imaginary

Between what is will

And reality

Drawing A Sky

Spill the paint by your hand

Spread them out

Till reach the sky

Run if you can

To the end of the world

And see a better rainbow

Hanging there below the tree

Green, blue, red, yellow and blue

It's your nail polish

From the paint box

I know you're happy

You laugh

Then jump

Orange, purple and pink

You mash up your nail polish

Now you see them with 3 colors

In the sky

I know you're happy

You laugh

Then run

Pointing at the box full of paints

You pick white and black

And spill them

Go fly to reach the top of the sky

And it's raining

I know you're worry, but

You laugh

Then cry

Let's go home

And showering

The sky might get more clear

Like the water bubble in your duck's 

You draw sky with your nail

Pretty

As you ever be

A Mind Ghost

It is my fictional man
Who used to brought me flowers
Sang me a lullaby
And ride me home after dinner

He wore white shirt
And blue denim
With that loose socks
And old vans shoes

We used to laugh together
Over silly jokes
And people came by
Through our sight

He never called me by my name
He use his code
I am his blah
And he's my brew

Playing mind trick is fun
You can shape anyone
To be anything you want to

Unless,
You stay walk on the road
Not on the sky

But now he's gone
Eat up by my egoism
Ran away from my silence
Leaving me many questions

I should build
Another fictional character
To find him
And tell
Thank you

For remaining in my mind
For staying in my head
For accepting what I was.

Sunday Blues

We already parted
Before we could say hello
Time is sucks
Running bluntly
Without compromising

Yesterday I saw you
In the best part of your shirt
Leaning your arms
To be my head pillow

Something confuse me
There were two of you
Different faces
Same scent
And favorite songs

I woke up
Feeling blues
Wandering why
I should see you
In the middle of crazy days

We never been allied
But I can use your jokes
Inside a small chat
Between me
And someone I don't even know

I thought mother earth was right
Sending me some signs
After new year
To tell me
No one's easy
No one's care

But last night I saw you
In the middle of sleeping
Walking behind me
Wear your favorite shirt
And singing that song

New year will still the same
You still a lucid thing
That I barely touch
Or see

Who is who?

Everyone seems so easy

Using some words to be their hype

Put the dictionary away

And create what they believe from what they see

Seriously?

Who are you?

Is your brain capability isn't enough

To produce lenghty word longer than tongue

The world doesn't made from imitation gold

It is nature

They were born within

They learn to grow and evaluate

Not imitating

Seriously?

Who is who?

Not the matter of time or euphoria

But people create something

To be seen

Not duplicate

Grow your green grass

Not by cutting them to sabotage mine

Seriously?

Who are you?

Who is who?

It's so hard just to claim what is mine