Dua Orang Tikus

Berlarilah mereka ke tempatku

Berkeluh tentang hidup yang kaku

Berkesah akan negaranya yang seperti hantu

Mereka adalah dua org tikus

Yg setiap hari makan milik saudara sendiri

Yg setiap saat mendapat uang tanpa henti

Yg tentu saja mereka dapat dari para petinggi

Mereka hanyalah dua org tikus

Entah untuk berapa kali mencaci teman sndiri

Berharap agar mereka lantas dihormati

Berusaha supaya mereka tak mati sendiri

Mereka cuma dua org tikus

Yg akhirnya membusuk oleh racunnya sendiri

Yg akhirnya menyerah karena tak ada lagi yang membela diri

Kantor, 30 Januari 2015

This Is The First Post in 2015

Let me tell you something...

Shit happens right away the day you left

I dont know that's the day you left because i am not sure when was the day you came

But i just feel that you left

Well that's not the point

The point is...

Why everyone left me? One by one?

Do i look like such a miserable person? Em yes of course i am

Do i look like a selfish person? Yes i am

Do i look ugly? Yes i am

Do i look like someone who cannot mingle with everyone? Em yes maybe

But wait...

Why do you want to come with me at the first?

What is my fault?

Or the fault is in our stars?

I feel sad. Really.

Well....

I am not supposed to feel bad

This is the new year

So i should have another great days ahead

I should have keep being positive like i did before

So i can feel happy all along

This is

This is the day when you think you're mature enough to choose but absolutely you're wrong.

This is the day when you think you're old enough to accept what life is but actually you're not even ready.

This is the day when you think you're strong enough to walk away from your closest people but the next day you will come to them begging for sorry.

This is the day when you think you're smart enough to lie to your own self but in reality you can not face the world by lying.

This is the day when you think you're weak enough to say tired but you have to know there are some people getting tired raising you up.

This is the time when you think you can let go of all your childhood but it will always stay in your heart.

This is time when you think you can be independet but you will always know that you need your parent.

This is the right time to cry.

Ain't Gonna Get You

I walk this far

To finally realize

You're a good thing

In my entire day.

I run this fast

To know about

How I can not stop

Thinking about your mind.

I dance like crazy

To fulfill my hope

Before it's getting

Too high and

Dry.

I eat like a pig

To forget everything

We've been through

All these times.

I try harder

To get everything

Back in track

Because I know

Ain't gonna get you.

Kemudian

Aku kemudian jatuh cinta

Kepada dia yang sudah ku tahu pasti tak mungkin bisa bersama

Lantas aku jatuh cinta

Dengan seseorang yang mendengar namanya saja otakku memuja

Dan aku akhirnya jatuh cinta

Kepada lelaki yang senyumnya, tingkah lakunya padaku yang membuat aku semakin jatuh cinta.

Hingga akhirnya aku jatuh cinta

Tidak pada lubang yang sama, namun jelas jalan kita berbeda.

Tapi aku tetap jatuh cinta

Kepadamu yang bisa membuat hatiku berdegup kencang

Aku jatuh cinta

Karena hanya dia yang dapat membuatku jatuh cinta.

Tanpa tanya mengapa

Kenapa

Apa

Dan bagaimana.

Aku jatuh cinta padanya

Untuk yang kesekian kalinya.

Love, N

2Q14

Another damn birthday.

To think I am going to have my twenty first birthday in this incomprehensible world, of all places!

2Q14

That was where I was now.

Q is for "question mark"

A world that bears a question.

(Adopted from Murakami's finest novel "1Q84")

Yo!

I miss you

Like the bee can not life without her sting

I miss you

Like romeo sacrifice his life for juliet

I miss you

Feels like the air not containing any oxygen anymore

And I miss you

Because I can not talk to you

Even for a word

Or a phrase

That

I miss

You.