2Q14

Another damn birthday.

To think I am going to have my twenty first birthday in this incomprehensible world, of all places!

2Q14

That was where I was now.

Q is for "question mark"

A world that bears a question.

(Adopted from Murakami's finest novel "1Q84")

Yo!

I miss you

Like the bee can not life without her sting

I miss you

Like romeo sacrifice his life for juliet

I miss you

Feels like the air not containing any oxygen anymore

And I miss you

Because I can not talk to you

Even for a word

Or a phrase

That

I miss

You.

Plaid

So.

I fall in love today.

In a shape of plaid.

Like cube.

But it is not.

Well.

Good day.

Friday.

May 22nd

I love arguing something

I love discussing everything

The time that finally I can talk as much as I can

The day that finally I can think as free as I can

Again.

I have to loose my definition of happiness

Should I give up everything that I believe it will become my happiness?

Or.

Should I never be happy for the entire of my life?

So.

I will not hurt anyone by anything what happened to me.

The moment when I can feel so much happy till smile widely.

The second I get to know that happiness is a very bless thing people have.

The night I have a nice dream.

Thanks for even making me happy effortlessly.

Thanks for the time you could give to me endlessly.

Thanks for good talk even I am not ask to.

It's always exciting to know you better.

From past, now and then.

May 17th

The moment when you feel happy but make others not.

The time when you actually meet what you want, but make others jealous.

Is this the life you talked before?

Is this the thing that you should do?

I've warned my self not to notice for whatever that took my happiness.

But, how if my happiness itself took away from me? 

Should I let them go?

So I change my kind of happiness.

I change my perspective about what being happy should be.

I find another point of view.

What is it?

Like a pandora box.

Full of secret.

But surely will make you the happiest person in the world.

I know what the best thing in my life.

Not you.

Sorry for ignoring what you told me.

Sorry for not being a good person before.

Today, I promise my self not to consider you as a part of my life.

Thanks for everything you gave.

Thanks for everything we've been through.

My love will always with you.

April 16th; before mid exam right away.

Wish me super luck in this very last day before mid exam is over

May I gain strength and power

God will remain your prays.

Xo, N.

Do you love her so much?

This is the first question come up from my head

Not for the first time

Not only for today

Been the whole year I am wondering

So I ask you today

Whether you like it or not

You deserve this or not

You feel it or not

You want to answer or not

The only answer I want to know

Is the truth what happened between you and her

What's been you've through

How do you find her

Why do you choose her

Why do you want her to be yours

Dear, All

Do you love her that much?

So you can show it to the world for loving her no matter people talk about you

Do you love her that much?

So you can deny the feeling before you meet her

Do you love her that much?

So you can walk her to the aisle saying a vow

Do you love her so much?

So you can make everyone jealous of both of you

Or you just do that because you've trapped in a realtionship with her

Or you show the entire world that you love her instead of you can not do anything but you have to be with her in term of your habit

Dear, All guys in this planet

Do you love your very best girlfriend so much?