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Garisnya tidak lagi setebal dinding
Warnanya tidak lagi setegas batu nisan
Namun bentuknya masih seindah kamboja seharum kenanga

Rautnya bukan lagi berisikan senyum kecil
Matanya sudah tergores sayatan luka tua
Tapi rasanya masih tetap kelapa muda

Jarinya kini tampak letih untuk menggenggam
Kakinya bahkan masih berbajukan karet
Tetapi fikirannya seperti elang

Aku bukan lagi anak kecil menangis
Aku tidak lagi meminta minum
Tapi aku mengerti apa yang terjadi

Aku sudah besar
Aku sudah dewasa.

People

We should talk
Then walk.
Or we could laugh
Then go high.

We can be friends
Then talk by walk.
Or we can be enemies
Then laugh each other at the high.

We could fight
But it never right.
We could spend night
But it dark no light.

We must dance
To know how far the chance.
We might run
To know how it could be fun.

Sometimes we forget what we should do at the end of the day.
But sometimes we just let it loose what happened at the end of your day.
Because we are a living blood.
Who might ran or walk to take the life.

Because we are human.
People. People.

Beautiful Sadness

If the wind does not make you falter
Whether I will stand motionless?
Clueless, meaningless?

If the best way is to let the falling leaves blowing in the wind
I better pick up leaves without a sound
Than sitting silent reading your empty face drawing a sorrow

I do not know how the wind can not seduce you
Making a piece of your deepest soul to forgive
Making a smile in the corner of your sight

Because someday you will very sorry for allowing wind curse you
Yet you can still have a chance to fix all the mess
But i'd rather call this beautiful sadness than happiness.

Past

It wont last like romeo and juliet
Once you've betrayed it will lost
You can't deny like it's your fate
It can change what are you so fast.

Moment to moment will disappear
Through your sincerity of kindess and sadness
Every road has been blocked by your car
To never remain a thing as memories.

The first thing came up in ur mind
That's everything should left by ur fragile shoulder
To acknowledge inch of
Yesterday smell around ur neighbour.

And right after you hit by a hint of symultenous the day before
You loose
Broken wings will never be the same until you remember one thing about
You regret everything happens.

And If these things come twice
Still you called it past?

(Almost) Being 20

Count down to my birthday. Less than a day, even less than 10hours.
I don't expect any celebration or birthday surprise. People can remember me or not. It's up to them.
As a matter now is I am getting older. Finally I hit the second head.
Seriously I am being nervous now. I don't know but it feels like i can't believe that I am already 20.
I don't want to be adult. Like a commercial in tv said: jadi dewasa itu menyenangkan tapi susah di jalanin. And yes I am agree!
Well I am preparing my self welcoming my second head. I hope it still a decade ahead. Ahead. Haha :-D

Ramadhan Mubarak

"Sesungguhnya orang-orang yang menyakiti Allah dan RasulNya, Allah akan melaknatinya di dunia dan di akhirat (33:57)"

Well, first of all I would say thanks to Allah SWT for His very big blessing for me. He is the most merciful. Without Him I never be very thankful 'till now. I am too happy. I don't know how to express. Let's just say Alhamdulillah.

Em why I choose this title? Besides now we are in Ramadhan month, this holy month also the very strategic moment to do all of good things. Kindess thingies. So many good thing you can do in this holy month.
I believe in God plans. For every human who pray and try will be paid. He never lies. He is a promise keeper.
Like a part of Alquran that I quoted above, we can't be rude to God or His Rasul. We can't make any harmful things. You can say that maybe God is unfair. That's one of rude thing from so many rude thingies that I can't describe.
You have to always believe in God. Once you broke His heart it will last. But again, Allah itu Maha Baik. Dia Maha Pengampun lagi Maha Penyayang.
Getting longer getting ngawur ini judul sama isinya. Intinya sering bersukur, jangan pernah suka marah sama Allah. Semua nikmat yang kita rasain kan datengnya dari Allah.

WELCOME, LADY.

Welcome welcome!

I am a new comer on Blogger, but maybe I am not a new comer on posting something. Before I decide to use Blogger, I already have a Tumblr account, and that's quite interesting. Or I can say that's very interesting.

Because I am a new comer, I still learning how to decorate and use Blog. Please pardon me if there are some weirdos setting on my Blog. Hihi.

Love, N.