Mother, How Are You Today?

2 Days Ago

It was her birthday

Could not be happier

Even if she's at home and all of her children not around her

But everyone remember her

Always remember her birthday

Saying happy birthday on the text message

Wishing her life granted and getting better

Got an euphoria

Happy face came through

That was maybe her best day

Even if that was not

Happy 51th birthday, mother.

Yesterday

I just texted her in the morning

Asked about a green tupperware that i could use it for my lunch

I thought she's okay that day after her very best day

Then I heard that she went to doctor

Obviously I was wondering what happened with her

She's not used to go to doctor

And I heard that news

She's got a kind of ill that made her can not walk in a while

Today

As of today she still in her ill

I ask my sister how is she

She's stiil doing the same thing a whole day

Laying down in the bed

Can not doing anything

Just sleep

Beause she's too weak to do everything

She always wake up in the morning doing everything in her own

But now she's only lay down on her bed

Seems like i want to ask her everyday

Mother, how are you today?

What I Like The Most

This is the style what I like the most.

Using jeans, skirt and only wear a simple bag.

But what matters is her hair.

Her short hair.

Her simple black shoes.

Her skinny bone.

She's perfect.

I am not usually into something.

But with her, I am.

I love what she's wearing.

I love what she's doing.

And I love what she's up to.

March 15th

Say something, I am giving up on you😔😷😐😶😑👩

We Are The Future Leaders; One Step Closer

Seperti kebanyakan pemuda, mempunyai banyak harapan dan cita-cita untuk bangsanya. Sudah banyak pemuda-pemudi Indonesia mulai banyak membangun gerakan-gerakan nasionalisme untuk kemajuan bangsa.

Namun apakah semua pemuda mempunyai harapan yang sama?

Ingat saat Indonesia mengalami Masa Reformasi, pemuda?

Atau hanya gambar bercerita saja yang kalian baca?

Pemuda tidak hanya membangun bangsanya lewat politik negara.

Moral dan etika pun bibit pembangun bangsa.

Apakah pemuda sudah siap untuk memperbaikinya?

Setidaknya pemuda harus bisa membuat satu langkah kedepan untuk bangsa negara.

Pemuda sudah seharusnya meninggalkan suka bukan duka.

Pemuda sudah semestinya membayar apa yang telah negara ini beri pada mereka.

Satu langkah lebih cepat pemuda membuat perubahan akan merubah bangsa ini menjadi mutiara.

Mutiara yang tak terkira harganya.

Bahkan mengalahkan film berpiala Maya.

March 6th

What you said it might be what you'll through. It never be wrong. Never.

I just said that I want to cry, yesterday.

And today I cry.

Hearing such a bad news.

Again.

God, did you really make my heart from a glass? It can easily broke and fix.

At the same time.

Without nude. Even a day or a week.

I know that sometimes life is not as beautiful as drama. Not as bad as drama.

But it feels more painful.

Imagining something you can not through. Because I know what happened, but I can not do anything.

I keep silent like a lion sleeps.

Once you bother me, I mad.

Once you touch me, I cry.

Louder.

Getting louder.

Even louder than a sirine.

I am 20 years old.

I know everything I am not supposed to know.

But I am worrying alone.

God, help me.

Help my family.

March 2nd

Feeling so confuse yet happy

Going back to a place where I should be the very first caption

To a place when I got the full of joy

Even if it can not be told as a joy

However

I do not want to back to a place where told me that I was lost

I do not want to give my half imagination to think about what people said that I was miserable

I am just confusing something not really into my mind

But it just comes up

May God finish the rest of this confusion